my mind was

in a mess

i'm tired of everything

need a break

gonna fall sick soon

haiz

hope everything will be in order asap

gtg

practise piano

shall end the short post with a pic..

it's beautiful, ain't it? =)

1st of Oct,

11.10pm

sis had boarded on the plane at KLIA

which left for UK

the visa has finally got approved

no more obstacles

thank God

pray for

safety journey

and

obtain a first class honour degree

back home

woohoo

just received sis's phone call

from Amsterdam

the time there is 6am now

she's waiting for flight transit

heading to Cardiff

7 hours to go

for the next flight transit

gonna miss her

for one year

*0*

i am totally lost

continuous reprimandsss by teacher

feeling moody

i've been showing

bad progress on my learning

why did it happen to me

not enough practise?

wrong way of practise?

hey you wake up
please

cant make teacher

felt disappointed

on me

oh god

i'm not stubborn

i'm not goin to make the mistake

purposely

but i just dont know

how to control

the dynamics n playing style

of the stupid Beethoven

too much of strength

will cause

a sharp tone

too less of strength

sorry man

no contrast at all

hey!how?

arghh

i'm slacking behind others

my Ginastera

rotten already

wat the hell am i doing

introspection needed

nvr felt so retarded n idiot

on my studies

or learning,whatever

I'M SUCH A IDIOT

damn

Adapt from http://musicstudents.blogspot.com/
by the violinist Yap Ling

Do you ever wonder or know :

• How much each music note costs you if you don’t practice?
• How much time and money you spend on your normal school as compare to your music lessons. Does it do justice?
• Why others are learning so much faster than you? Ask them and compare the difference.
• Since you are already making such an investment, why not trying your best to make it worthy? Why wasting your time and money?
• Playing an instrument is not like other study where you can burn "mid-night torch" and still be able to get a good result. The playing is physical and your muscles need to be trained to be able to take control.
• Lazy people always cannot find time and the busy one always have plenty of time. Why? Are the excuses really necessary?
• If geniuses are born genius without hard work and sacrifices?
• The more you like certain thing the more you spend time on it and is the same vice versa.
• Students tend to do well if they have encouragement and support from their piers and especially their family.
• Learning to play an instrument is like paddling the boat upstream against the current. Once you stop the boat will move backward because of the current. Well, that is what happened when you stop playing.

yesterday

had ms hau's lesson

her piece of words

boost my courage

to fight for

the chance of

studying

MUSIC

hope everything

will be ok

although i knew

there was

only a glimpse of chance

but i'll try hard

to prove it

not to them only

but myself too

转贴自http://my-signatures.blogspot.com

“音乐，尤其是古典的，就让很多人误解，要靠这个赚钱，很多人就认为根本不可能。但是，我说你们都错得太离谱了。现在是什么样的一个社会，很多艺术家都已经改变自己的脾气来迎合这个现实的都市。现在真的会有赚不了生活的艺术家吗？

现在的艺术家，音乐家，钢琴家，已经不一样了。当然，要到‘家’毕竟还有一段距离，而这段距离，绝对不是短的，也不是平坦的。但是如果你喜欢音乐，享受它，那还不容易到‘家’吗？最重要的是，理性分析自己要的是什么，坚持自己的理念，勇敢地迈向自己的梦想。

是谁不曾被说过练琴很吵？

是谁不曾被说过教琴没饭吃？

是谁不曾被说过教琴不稳定？

但是，是不是这样就放弃理想？然后一辈子都过着自己不喜欢的生活，做着自己不喜欢的工作，然后不出10年就开始厌倦，厌恶人生。

如果是这样，我宁愿开开心心的吃面包，也不要流着眼泪吃鱼翅。这不是艺术家的脾气，只是一个人对自己的责任，就是让自己开心。”

十分同意这篇部落，但有多少人明白？

不知道我能不能对自己负责？

妈

我不想违背我所要的

我不想转科

请不要卖掉我的钢琴

不然我死给你看

不要逼我

——————————

我是天生的失败者

你们不要理我

因为你们会觉得很失望

现在好想练琴

原来

音乐是有钱人子弟才能读的

原来

家人是那么讨厌我练琴的

原来

妈妈一直不看好我读音乐

原来

音乐让人看不到它的前景

原来

音乐是那么不受欢迎的

原来

读音乐是那么让人看不起的

原来

在人家眼中读音乐的是不会读书的人

我开始泄气了

因为。。。

我不是有钱人

我练琴很吵让他们觉得很烦

妈妈只希望我读account

妈妈说教琴赚不到钱，像乞丐，像做散工

有教就有钱

连公积金都没有

工作不稳定

亲戚和以前sponsor我读书的uncle

知道我要读音乐都静静保持沉默

表示不支持的态度

我坚持到很累

YAY!!

got a new score yesterday

teacher

gave me a Beethoven's work

Sonata No.5 in C minor Op.10 No.1

haha

i like Beethoven's

madness

*grin*

whee~!

last sunday

my beloved grandma

had passed away

it was a sad news

but

she'd finally free from

the torment of illness

today

went to collect the ashes

life was

just so fragile

haiz

thanks all my friends

i'm fine, really

thanks

kuangyik,tuckloong,kokwei

beckham,boonleong

who came to

visit n pay the last respect

to my grandma

during past two days

thanks vr much,

peiwen who came

purposely in the morning on wed

to send her condolences

meixin,meijean,

suvy,jiayue,

chingning,mary,

chinhoong

i'd received

yr kindness n condolences

thanks for it

thanks C1

i feel that

i'm not alone

when i feel weak

last but not least

the one who helped me most

during these few days

including attending

grandma's funeral ceremony

despite of 'pantang'

thanks a lot!

Must break the record

Damn.

Prelude in B flat minor Op28 No16

Fingers jammed.Hands crippled.

Cant go fast.

This song was cursed.

I'm the 4th who tries to break the curse.

three ppl before me-all surrenderred.

I MUSNT GIVE UP!!!

Seems vr busy recently.

duno what am i busying about

Piano teaching is enjoyable

but those students r so lazy

feel like strangle them

wasting their parents money

n their time also

I,myself have not enough time

for practising

yet i still have to

waste time on them

no choice.

i need money.shit.

Fell in love on

Beethoven n Debussy

Fell in love with

Beethoven's

Sonata in C minor

3rd mvt--Rondo,Allegro

Debussy's

Childrens Corner

5 of them was so unique n nice.

Do i still have the chance to

my _____ dream??

cant mention here.

Old ppl told me

dun ever tell others yr wishes

or else it will gone.

haha.superstitious.

xx.grin.xx

Pieces in progress:

Beethoven-Sonata in C minor
Ginastera-Danzas del Gaucho Matrero (3rd mvt)

Debussy-Childrens corner,Dr Gradus ad Parnassum

God bless grandma

Please wake up

n

talk to me

smile to me

I MISS IT..

28th of June master cls wif Mr Ong Lip Tat there are 8 soloist ,including me bt I'm the greenhorn among them not bad though Mr Ong praised all of Ms Hau's students--us,GOOD! He commented me: fast learner,quite clever student.. oh,it's my pleasure to receive a wonderful comment increase my self-confidence thanks~~ I WILL WORK EVEN HARDER! 29th of June Chong Chin Lee's Piano Recital Tat was excellent But there was a pity tat Mr Ong din performed much Looking forward for his concert on 9th of July!!

Piano Recital by CHONG CHIN LEE

Proudly Presented by Twelve Notes Music Centre

Date: 29th June 2008 (Sunday)

Time: 3pm

Venue: Jotic Auditorium

Guests of Honour: Maestro Ong Lip Tat

Mr Oh Chee Kiong

Ms Hau Ping Ping

*Playing Haydn,Rachmaninoff,Schumann,Brahms

No admission for children below 5 years old!!

___________________________

Oh..yeah

this is the Piano Recital held by my teacher

Chong Chin Lee is our senior

just completed 3 yrs diploma at NAFA

now preparing to enter the 4th yr for her degree

this concert also aimed for raising her school fees

so do support her !!

28th of June

our master class

Maestro Ong Lip Tat

will be conducting the master class

wew!! EXCITED~~~

must worked hard

to outshine other students !!

Pieces in progress:

Chopin-Prelude in B flat minor Op28 No16

Prelude in F minor Op28 No18

Bach-Prelude and Fugue No6 in D minor,Well-Tempered Clavier BK II

Ginastera-Danzas del Gaucho Matrero (3rd mvt)

GAMBATE !!

it has been a long time since my last visit here

nth special on me

same life.same life target.

last wed woke up early in the morning

guess wat did i do??

morning walk

haha..unbelievable right?

sb's getting FATTER..haha

he needs SOME exercise..

i'm the health adviser okay !!

the park of pelangi indah was so beautiful

fresh air..2 big lakes

n the greenish grass !!

WOW~

made me feel more energetic

afterwards went to have our breakfast

McD!!

i was craving for it for soooo many weeks

bt it was so disappointed

the BIG breakfast was so SMALL

arghhhh

i thought it was nice

but....T.T

rumours said that there will be a rise

on the fees of students

bt the admin fee will be rised as well

it was really a 'GOOD' plan

fr the management

they earned happily

we worked hardly

bt we earn pity salary

somemore

there is a big possibility of

the enforcement on signing contract

haiz..

hope these wont happen

BIG DISASTER IS COMIN'

good luck for sis mid sessional exam

uncle is visiting us soon

yeah

MADNESS

.....

arghhh !!

i want it. i want it. i want it. i want it. i want it. i want it. i want it. i want it. i want it. i want it. i want it. i want it.
i'll buy it if it is FREE...may i?

attended a fren's wedding buffet

kinda weird FEELING

getting married at this young age

awe..

if i were her..

NO WAY!!

i'm not going to be tied down by marriage so early

i still enjoy to be a "Miss"

as

once u've got married

u will become an AUNTIE

(arghh~scream loud)

enjoy to have 100% freedom

yay~

anyway

wish them happiness n everlasting

God bless the small couple =)

---------

my dear sweetie pat...

i'm craving for McD now.. >.<

---------

about the music course at NAFA

to me..

it was a bit dissapointed

the fees was EXPENSIVE indeed..

the whole course is

3 yrs diploma + 1 yr degree

altogether 4 years

diploma course fees (TGD):

S$8,250 x 3yrs = S$24,750

convert to RM becomes RM56,925

OMG..

the degree course fees

S$19,000

convert to RM becomes RM43,700

so my whole studies at NAFA will cost

RM56,925 + RM43,700 = RM100,925

more than 100K

crazy!!

where can i get these money from???

besides these

the miscellaneous fees

transportation fees

..

if i decided to study there

must find a part-time job

or else i wont survive

i think i wont stay at s'pore

as there will be a large burden

the renting fee,household fees..

just cant imagine..

in these 2 yrs

i wont be going there

have to wait sis back from UK

for the meanwhile

i think should learn well on my piano first

or my life will be difficult if i go there

without planning

hopefully can get scholarship at NAFA

after having good preparation in this 2 yrs

May GOD lead me to success =)

yesterday's trip to S'pore

seriously jammed at the woodland checkpoint

got stucked almost an hour

phew!

arrived at the Bugis bus station at 1pm

went straightforward to NAFA

luckily it was only two streets away from the bus station

about ten minutes walk to reach there

so convenience!!!

the music department was at Campus 3

they were having their lunchtime concert

at the Lee Foundation Theatre

all staffs n lecturers were not in the office

since the concert was FREE ADMISSION
so we went into the hall!

wow~

the NAFA student was so professional!!

their performance was sooooo good~

APPLAUDSSSS...

i took the picture secretly...

the flute performer performed with full expression
BRAVO!!!

yesterday

i taught an uncle

PIANO!!

so awkard

bcoz

when he sat on the piano stool

he was actually taller than me

juz like a lamp post..

OMG

but he is a good daddy

the reason he came for piano lesson

was -- his two kids

he wanted to cultivate the interest on music

of his 2 kids

so he will b the example

gosh~

he rush to yamaha straightforward after his work

n

he really paid 100% attention

during his lesson

he was a fast learner too

an attentive man was really

ATTRACTIVE

haha

unresistable..

yeah..

he was really attractive

cant stop myself to have one more glance

to HIM

although he was a middle-aged man

@_@

i juz want an ordinary life

a healthy body n happy life

playing piano n spend my rest life

all i want was only this

could u grant me for these few things?

pls..let me live peacefully

i cant face any blow in my life

i juz wanna to be simple

caressing = pity

i dont need it

SULKY life

mouldy life

boring life

torturing life

______________________________

i found tat i was getting more n more depress

no reason

pls be considerate

i'm sorry

i cant stop myself from writing some depressing words on here

i need sth to brighten my heart

haiz..

my poor piano spoilt alr..

the leather on the keys has thoroughly used

yet i still keep practising

all torn

powderish thing came out..

have to send for repair

it will last for one week

the piano has been with me for 14 years alr

almost become a part of my body

really heartbroken ='(

leaves r falling

color's fading

dogs are wailing

babies r crying

fact is changing

everything still keep going

the earth continues revolving

the current still whirling

i'm pondering

y mishaps keep befalling

my heart is grieving

life is boring

life is sickening

i'm praying

hope there will be an ending

i got a severe brain damage

damn

DAMN

DaMn

DAmn

exhausted..

16 pages of melody decoration homework

kanasai !!

yesterday

9 hours marathon of teaching session

super duper tired..

GIMME A BREAK PLS

splitting headache.. :(

one week passed..new year will come to an end soon

so boring..

i prefer learning n working~

i m the typical w-o-r-k-a-h-o-l-i-c!!

looking forward to our celebration for our performance at 26/1

haha..exciting..

bt still not sure if there's anyone absent..

sat coming..hihi..

new chord!!new chord!!

YESS!!

so clumsy me..

recently kept tripping over the chair n stool..

haiz...

task undone:

ask Mr Tay to tune the piano

n

the countless theory

...RESTLESS..

sth to share with u guys:

i'm ME,MYSELF

to be yourself is the most happiest~

dont subjugate each other..bcoz u r not my pet n so m i

pimples...pimples...

the damn heartless thingy..

keep popping out..

stop haunting me pls..

i promise to keep away fr heaty foods..

I'M SORRY~

hope the pimples will recover soon without leaving any scars

sis back INTI..suvy too..

argh..boring JB again~haiz...

i shall work hard too start from now

gambate~~

What does your birthday mean?

Aug,13

You are sincere and easy going. Flattering and charming around are not your style. You care so much for freedom that often leads you to the difficult path. Because of your sincerity, most people find you easy to be around although you are sometimes too straightforward. Your Love, Your gentleness, care and sincerity make you an attractive person. Even though you don't intend to be charming, but you naturally are, especially in the eyes of opposite sex.

05/02/08 gathering with buddies!!

after piano class,went to leisure mall for time killing

since we agreed to meet at 6.30pm

met beckham at leisure mall n went to fetch suvy

oh ya, felt sorry to let y'all to wait at Mcd for a long time

I APOLOGIZE AT HERE..VR VR SORRY TO Y'ALL!!

after discussing,we decided to go to the treetop restaurant
it was quite famous in JB..

we dined on the treetop,so cool!!!

the food was ok

rated as moderate lah

but the atmostphere was good

windy n relaxing

ate nasi lemak with chicken rendang

n a cup of hot milo
n our side dish were sambal sotong n otak-otakssss

we moved on to danga bay

rided bicycle..it was FUN!!!
went to the funfair too~

had a satisfied merry-go-around ride

wahahaha~~

left danga bay

went for a drink at the mamak stall
went home at around 1am

nice memories..nice trip!!!

26/01/08 DUTY FREE ZON
Chinese New Year celebration live band performance
it was really a success!
YESS!
we r the best!
Thank you yikchoon,peifang,janet,ah de,zhongyi,geraldine~

Yesterday was a happy day..
Because i had one hour for my lunch time!!haha..
Went for lunch with
Mr Low & Ms Ow (piano teacher)
Yiting (guitar teacher) n Mr Edmund (drum teacher)
A pleasant lunch..
Mr Low was 'excited' all thru the lunch..
Gibberish-ing and laughing..
We don't what was the problem..giggs~
Met lin2ying1jie2 FYHS art teacher too..

Friday's rehearsal..
Just got the scores of da4di4hui2chun1~
Took some time to improvise it..
Quite a new thing to me
as I had never done this before..
managed to write some accompaniment for the violin
and made some arrangement for the
violin,classic guitar n accoustic guitar and piano (myself ) too!

Sunday again..
Phew..
Havent prepare Sunday's class hour..
two songs havent memorized yet..Gosh!
gotta buck up~

terrible month..
no income..no mood..
NO JOKES definitely...
the fee's so expensive!!

nearly one mth's yoga..
wow!my whole body's still stiff..
like an old lady..==
bt i will persist..due to my own health!yay~
build good stamina,go abraod n study!YESS!
USA~i'm coming!!

strive hard..
this month planner:
26/1 -
concert for CNY celebration @ THE ZON, 3pm
27/1 - class hour 3pm
Prelude in G Op28 No3 by Chopin
Invention No2 in C minor by JS Bach

phew~packed!
time to strive hard~bye! ;p

new year new resolution newly me~
gambate..
2008 cheers~
yesterday went for a relative's wedding dinner..
drank 6 gls of red wine with empty stomach..
omg..i can felt the world is spinning around!!
another thing...
one of my student cried this morning..
hey..i wanna say that it's nt my fault!!
i didnt scold her!
she was throwing tantrum n she didnt want to play the piano
n she just sat at the corner n cry..
stickers wasnt effective to her..so just let her be..
haiz..kids are unpredictable~like weather..haha~
we cant predict what they will do next..
mayb they will laugh at this minute n they cry next..haha~
mayb a piano teacher also have to learn some skills fr the supernanny..
or else we cant deal with some naughty kids..